" Thow shall not kill"

As I mentioned my life at home when I grew up was not ideal. My way of dealing with this was to wander off and explore. One rainy day I was playing on the top level of our machinery shed. This was a vast area with one sliding door to the North West side and another to the east side. When I got there I notice a swallow flying around the place. Every once in a while he would come low enough for me to catch it. I tried hard but couldn’t catch it. At one point he stops on a ledge for a minute to rest from all that flying. I picked up a stick and threw it at it hitting him dead on! He fell to the floor and wasn’t moving. I picked it up and held it up for a while but it was clear I had killed it! I cried for a while then I remembered one of God's commandments “You shall not kill and I was overcome with fear and guilt. I think I can understand now how Cain felt when he killed Abel. I open the sliding door and threw it outside in the rain and ran home to hide in my room. I thought I was going to go to jail for sure but after a few days my crime seemed to have gone unnoticed to my relief! That was my first experience with death my second was the death of a baby rabbit I had found in the grass behind the barn. My sister Danielle was with me. I took it home and put it in an open box. I was so exited about this bunny he was so tiny and cute. Two days later I took to school in a box but later that day Danielle came to borrow it so she could show it to her classmates. I was reluctant but she assured me it would be safe. That afternoon at the bus stop I was told Bunny had died. I was so angry at my sister for killing it which was my conclusion. I decided I should bury Bunny. I wrapped it in a rag and dug a hole with my hands and buried it. I even said a prayer for Bunny as I cried. This death so deeply affected me that I cried for a few days when I was alone. A week later I went back and unburied it. When I open the wrapping up I saw Bunny was still dead but now ants were all over it. I quickly discarded it and reburied it. I thought about it a few times after but I wasn’t as attached anymore. I resented Danielle for a long time after that for some reason .