Mike' codes

In order to exist as Mike Young I had to believe in the person I was creating .If I just called myself Mike Young and yet remain the same person sooner or latter I would trip in my lies and I would be exposed.It was importante that those who knew Paul did not know me as Mike. Getting caught in a lie is worst then death to me. The battle between good and bad was being fought inside me daily . I was inherently a good person ! After all my child hood role model was Jesus ! Even though Mike was created by my need for an alter ego to live and do the things Paul was to shy to do, He could not be evil! If I didn't like Mike I could never be him convincingly. As Mike I had to have a code of conduct and rules. Television and movies were my teacher and I was the student. For example when I started stealing I imagine myself to be Alexander Mundy from the show “It takes a Thief”. He was what I call a classy thief who took pride in his skill and plan all his jobs. He was a master at what he did and never carried a gun . He was like Robin hood and stole from the rich not the poor. I vowed that I would be that kind of thief !I was still very inexperience with women so I bought a book called “the sensuous man” and if you can believe it learn how to kiss and touch a women to make her melt. Two other of my role model from television was Kwy Chang King from Kung fu and of course Bruce Lee . From them I learned that you only should fight when you have to and never be a bully. Last but not least “The Fonz” from happy days. He would be my role model for picking up women . I wanted to be as popular with women as he was. At least in the beginning he always had lots of girlfriends . Later in the series they made him monogamous and I think that’s when I lost interests. As Mike those are the values that would define me and when I broke my codes of conduct I actually would feel ashamed . Eventually since my Dad wasn’t a great role model for me I found my own. Because my first role model was Jesus, my role Models as a teenager had to have some good in them it seems. This would get me through some of my future experience as well.